It has now been 6 months and my thoughts are still very much on you Lori. When we were wed, I
know that we both knew that your disease could someday separate us for a while (here on earth).
You asked me many times before we married if I was sure that I wanted to get involved with that. I
was more than willing to take the risk. I had fallen in love with you, and for me, there was no turning
back. But now that it has all come to pass, and I am missing you so much, I have thought it all over
and come to realize this: I'd do it all again. Even though I know how short the time was to seem, and
knowing how much it was going to hurt missing you. I'd do it all again.
There were a lot of times when you were very sick that you would look at me and say " You know if
you want to leave me, I'd understand, and I'll still love you". There was no way that I ever wanted to
leave you. I never understood why you would say this to me, but I now think I can. You knew how
painful this was going to be, and all you ever wanted was for me to be happy. I want to thank you for
thinking of me like that, but what made me the happiest was to be at your side when you needed me
most. One of your favorite songs spoke the words "you were my eyes when I couldn't see...you were
my voice when I couldn't speak". I know that you loved that song because you loved me being there
with you in all you went through.
I am grateful that you gave me the gift of your hand in marriage, and the opportunity to be with you in
all you went through.
Time is lessening the sharpness of the pain of not seeing your face, or hearing your voice, or just
watching you do those things that you loved doing. But deep within my soul I feel you still. My eyes
have forever etched your beauty into my memory and my ears have recorded your voice for all time. I
love you still.
